Chapter 7: Stalemate
The lessons of the valiant Laura notwithstanding, adulthood brought my internal schism into full development. I may have come to terms with being tall, but that only gave me room to obsess about being fat.
Fat. Never has there been a word more rife with angst than this one. Never has there been a [...]
Archive for April, 2008
A Girl and Her Body, Chapter 6
Posted in Uncategorized on April 28, 2008 | 2 Comments »
With Apologies
Posted in Uncategorized on April 24, 2008 | 1 Comment »
As someone who has lived with engineers and cats for over 3 decades, I offer this with affection. And apologies to those who came here looking for something… else.
A Girl and Her Body, Chapter 5
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged body image, marriage, personal development on April 22, 2008 | 3 Comments »
Chapter 5: A Compromise of Sorts
Dear Laura gave me a lasting gift, for every time I tried it on, it fit perfectly. Every time I stood tall instead of hunched over, every time I held my head high with my shoulders back, I felt whole and fine, like I’d come home.
The boys were still scared [...]
A Girl and Her Body: Chapter 4
Posted in Uncategorized on April 21, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Chapter 4: Laura’s Inspiration
Puberty is just too cruel, don’t you think? Mine is too pathetic to write about today in any detail. There are so many moments, still so very vivid in my memory, that I know are significant:
- getting my period
- my first bra
- 7th grade gym class
- swim suits
- being 5′9 in the [...]
A Girl and Her Body: Chapter 3
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged beauty, body image, miss america, phyllis george, phyllis mathis, self-esteem on April 18, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Phyllis George, Miss America, 1971.
I was there, cheering her on. Well, not there in Atlantic City, but there in our living room, caught up in all the excitement. I was riveted to the pageant that year, fascinated that such a lovely creature could be named Phyllis, same as me. It was inspiring, I think. [...]
A Girl and Her Body, Chapter 2
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged body image on April 17, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Chapter 2. Egon Dzintars and Jana Gerken
When I was a child I never saw one of those height and weight charts the doctors were quick to show me for my own children. The one with the percentile scores based on age, height, and weight that they show parents during regularly scheduled well-baby exams.
In my era [...]
A Girl and Her Body: A Very Long Tale of Nearly Lost Love
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged body image, childhood, siblings, transformation on April 16, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Chapter 1. Too Big to Play
As far as I know I was normal at birth. No one ever told me otherwise. It wasn’t until that one spring day, after I’d just turned 5, that I discovered I wasn’t as normal as I might wish to be.
It was a rare moment, looking back. We were up [...]
Leap Learning
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged learning, Newfield, personal growth, transformation on April 11, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Sometimes I just don’t know what to say, how to write about an experience I’m having, or a thought I’m thinking, or a shift that’s happening at some deep level. I’m sure you can relate.
I’ve been thinking how to write about my experience with Newfield Network’s Foundations Course, and I confess I’ve been stymied for [...]
Memo to God, The Universe, and Everybody
Posted in Uncategorized on April 8, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Re: All the blessings, love, good wishes, successes, delightful opportunities, bountiful banquets, moments of joyful abandon, opportunities to cut loose and dance, warm embraces, shared tears, etc.
Regarding any of these gifts that were sent my way:
I regret to inform you that due to technical soul/spirit difficulties, many of these gifts were returned or set aside [...]
What Did You Learn, Dorothy?
Posted in Uncategorized on April 7, 2008 | 2 Comments »
It’s Monday morning. I apologize for being unable to keep my promise about blogging during my Newfield weekend. Even now I’m finding it hard to articulate the value I’ve received, except to say that I feel like Dorothy, fresh from Oz, recalling that magic moment when she learned the secret of [...]
